It’s the Saturday before finals week and I am inevitably looking for every excuse to procrastinate in the face of hours of readings. Great time to begin my daily reflection habit.
It’s finally hitting me that this is the last time I will go through the familiar routine of preparing for final exams. This is my last quarter in college; the two tests I have this week will be the last of my undergraduate career. It’s a funny feeling knowing my time in UCSB’s classrooms is coming to a close. Although I’d like to, I’m not sure there’s any way to avoid repeating the cliche that it’s a bittersweet moment in my life. As much as I love being a student here, something inside of me has sprouted and grown beyond the confines of the university. I feel ready to take on “the real world”- to get a job, move somewhere new, and establish my identity as an American adult. My ambition is certainly tempered by the nostalgia that I get being on campus, but even though every day I become more and more aware of how much I love this school, I am also aware that my love stems from UCSB’s pushing me into independence and preparedness. As another cliche goes, sometimes when you love something you have to let it go.
As I sit in the same cafe where I’ve been studying the last three years, the sights and sounds of a student body stressfully scrambling to get ready for finals only brings me a sense of gratitude. This community has given me so much; I am sure I would not be the same man I am today without the unique experiences I’ve had here in Isla Vista. All the stress, the setbacks, the sweat and the successes have molded me into a young adult who is excited and eager to take his future in stride. Cheers to finals week, and cheers to you UCSB.